2 decades ago, while I was typing away in-front of a small monitor doing what I do best. A manager walked into the office for an afternoon visit . As usual, after morning hours in our business development department it will be usually quiet, peaceful and little steps at the door would be heard since every sales personnel is out of the office doing their powerful runs in the market. All of a sudden, Manager approached me at my cubicle told me in a thunderous voice, I sound like a DUCK on the phone!. I was silent, trying to digest what he had said.
He confirmed on his statement by saying it again “YES! you sound like a DUCK. Why do speak like that? Do you know it may seem that you are using your nose to talk? perhaps a trumpet on your nose while i was talking. Did you pinch your nose while you speak on the phone” him pinching his nose and speak like a duck comically . I kept silent, looked blanked holding my giggle as he looked funny and thinking in thoughts what made him said that to me. I have no idea why he said that, and I gave him a bashful smile.
He made an honest remark on me about my voice and the way I speak. I wouldn’t and did not take it as an insult at least it gave me an agenda to know how others would think of me. I took his compliments and his opinion about me by thanking him on being abruptly honest but stating that it is my natural voice and it was me authentically.
I said to him “I’m glad I managed to get your attention by my unique voice”. After that, I can’t help myself on the wonders then I started asking everyone how I sounded on the phone. Those feedback I’d gotten wasn’t as bad. Some said my voice is sweet, some said my voice sounded like a little kid, and some would say nothing is wrong with my voice. I would say I was a little self-conscious back then, perhaps a little now too.
Presently, this feeling of self-doubt and self-consciousness kicked in whenever I am writing to post. Flashbacks on that afternoon from Manager comes in and go in my thoughts. Will I sound like a duck when I communicate in writing? I would questioned myself that all the time. I still am trying to find that particular one voice, but I don’t think i could come to only one as you may find in my writing.
So I tracked my likes and loves which gave me the courage and inspires me to JUST write. Was it a permission question?
I remembered this movie which gave me fantasies in being a writer just like her in the movie. I was in-love with character I watched back then, Carrie Bradshaw (played by Sarah Jessica Parker, a Hollywood star), the fictional character in the movie SEX and THE CITY. I watched that movie over and over again. I am all awes as it was so inspiring to write like that. It is so her and in-tune with her voice.
Then, there was so many YouTuber and bloggers start to write about writing their lifestyle blogs, fashion, makeup blogs, mummies blogs all kinds of interests theme blogs. I feeling so grateful for all those who had shared about their fears and shame too, so I wasn’t lonely in this journey in writing on pieces of thoughts for sharing to the whole world.
There is one Vblogger on Youtube who had phrased blogging wonderfully.
” Blogging is really a beautiful way on sharing it with the world”. – Meg@youtube/Meg Says“
I had a GO and just writing more after watching this episode, check out more tips from her on How To Start A Blog: Step By Step For Beginners | Meg Says. —> Thanks Meg for sharing those wonderful tips.
Now what I am sure of is everyone is unique. Every voice has it’s own life and not one tone has the same pitch. AS for me, I shall continue on finding and sharing my voice as I know for sure it is a journey.