I choose to be on a website and to blog because it is easy timing for me. To me, I have lots in mind and I want to put in words but I cannot be in on a constricted timing, in a specific time frame like a time block. Being a stay-at-home-mom requires me to be grounded with mainly all things at home and keeping up with my kids. My timing is unpredictable, or it may be just chaotic and un-reserved to any plans which is much preferred at least by me.
I have been always curious on what I can do if I write. About 2 decades ago, one of my sweet friend who I hang out with often at that time, she gave me a prediction on what I will do in my future based on my zodiac sign. She said I would be more suitable to be a writer or a pastor, anything that is much mundane like just being a person who dictate written words. I don’t know what was my reply to her, as always, I would say “Are you sure?” and gave her a look of dismay – that perhaps was my answer to her. She is my friend and both of us are very dear towards our friendships. I am sure she had meant well on what I could be when I graduate from our high school.
I have always been on a diary, not filling up pages with my conundrums of thinking but rather whenever I raged or saddened, I would write again and again on pages by pages on what was the anger I’m feeling and it was a good way to trash things out from my heart or mind and perhaps my soul-talking. I guess that started a way of a peculiar journaling or one would say a diary therapy.
I never finished using a nice notebook, and I will always a get a new one to fill my rantings and thoughts of anger or sadness. My wishes always will be with the stars as I knew it. I never quite satisfied with my writings too, but I kept changing the way I write, and kept having new exercise books and notebooks, I would say as many new nice papers I can get my hands on. I would just get it to keep it, telling myself that I would one day need it for my awesome writes.
That was before the internet age. Came the 1990’s when internet started to bloom fast and ever-evolving since then. Blogger.com or I believe it was called blogspot? Exists then and I came to know that I could publish my diaries online on a free account. The extensive amount of bloggers mushrooming at that time was massive and I was inspired by their authenticity in their blogs, their sharing, their voice and their writes. Soon, I began my own account to tried on, more so I had set it private most times as I wasn’t comfortable in sharing my thoughts on a global stage front. More so, I continued with my scribbles off-line to be more for comfortable and private.
I was always on a spiritual path, looking for I don’t know what, soul-searching probably as I always thought I can do better than what I am doing right now. I don’t quite stop at learning new things, or being expose to new aura mind-works. Words from Oprah, Marrianne Williamson, Marie Forleo , Brenie Brown and Elizabeth Gilbert. Shonda Rhimes, Ellen Degeneres and many others who had showed me the way of how every woman can be more than just a home-maker or a working mom, but a person who can be fulfilled by achieving what they believe they can do much more. That much more which I had yearn so much over the years were later found to be – I want to illuminate my existence in this world, and young ones will perhaps one day here my voice, my skill, my knowledge from the people I do not know who are alike-me. As much as I was inspired by so many woman and man who had done-it-all-have-it-all, I myself pictured me as well to be it.
The first few books, which I read when I was younger, and caught an epic nudge in my stomach was this paragraph,
“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.” ― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie
This meaning by Mitch Albom who has given me the picture of what exactly is happening in my life. I found that the need to be truly be in present, conscious and clear in living, in being alive. As I do exist in reality, and my purpose to my family was all I have, but I know there is more to what I can do while i am always with them.
I exist and now I am here, I will travel through these pages and posts on this wide web, the internet world. To share and to learn, to find connections to people globally.
In a short conclusion,
- Choose to blog for you exist in this world and you are special.
- Choose to blog because it is flexible and freelance, you can do this at minimal costs or FREE.
- Blogging brings out the skills in you, improves your ability to share.
- Being able to blog authentically is being grateful for one is living.
Next on my post, what platform do I use for my blog?
Thank you for reading, do check out my pages and posts from time to time. I may be slow on posting but it doesn’t mean I will give up. Hope to see you again,
Cheers! to good blessings always,